Hard To Heal
This is very personal to me, and I share it in hopes it will help others.
We speak on how important it is to heal from our past. However, what if your present situation feels the same as what you’ve been through?
I was the abused youth who had to climb out of a very deep-dark hole, dust myself off, and keep on going while dragging my hurt and dysfunctions with me. I tried to find stability, normality, and comfort in new conditions. You know, a fresh start. Yet to only find myself treading through murky waters again as a young adult with individuals that caused me to relive what I'd been through. They added on additional pain and caused me to fall right back into that dark hole.
Fighting for #teamme is an occupational hazard I know very well.
I never got the opportunity to really follow through with the healing process until recently. This occurred because my primary environment and people changed. I have noticed a healthier difference in me and concluded that I couldn't heal before because I was still walloping in unhealthy conditions.
If we don’t place ourself in a safe, peaceful environment, it won’t matter how much talking or counseling we do, you will not heal properly. It’s like having an open wound and cleaning it with diseased water. We’re only making it worse.
"And no one pours new wine into old wineskins. Otherwise, the wine will burst the skins, and both the wine and the wineskins will be ruined. No, they pour new wine into new wineskins."
We have to pour new life into us in a new environment or with new people.
I’m not here to step on any toes. I only want to give my point of view from my experiences. If what’s in your life; rather person, place, or thing feels like what wounded you in your past, it might be time to reevaluate your situation.
I know it is easier said than done, and everyones situations is unique. Therefore, I want you to ask God for guidance because He knows what you are going through and will direct your path.
Also, seek counseling, organizations that provide assistance according to your situation, talk to people you trust and NEVER believe you are alone in your battle. I will always pray for you and with you.
Stay encouraged and continue to express what you believe and love who you are.